Dear Lolo ko,
'' What is this I'm feelin' I just can't explain. When you're near I'm just not the same. I try to hide it, try not to show it. ''
--- Butterflies on my stomach; Slow Motion; Heart that beats fast. All of these ''corny'' things already happened to me. Yea! You feel like you are in heaven when you have a long conversation with your crush. Sweet right? Talking to him all day, from morning to morning again. A non-stop conversation to someone you like? I wish I can go back to that time, I wish I have my own time machine where I can change that into a sweeter thing but suddenly everything change. First, let me tell you the history of my sad yet sweetest thing that happened in my whole entire life. ---
I met him here in our place. He is a God's follower, he always pray, he studies in a seminary, in short, he is a SEMINARIAN (someone who's vocation is being with God). At first, I really don't like him. Actually it's not my plan to have crushes or to like someone who's vocation is being with God. I just want to be his friend, that's why I tried to ask his name to some of his co-brothers that are already my friends. Some of them already think that I like him, but actually NOT! After their 1 week stay here in our place, we don't have any closure yet. So after the days past, he came back again, just not to join their sports fest here in our place but to have his vacation. Since the summer vacation is 2 months, he stay here for almost 2 months with his friend and also a seminarian. Well, this is my chance to be his friend. Hahahaha :D And this is the start of my story. Since I've met him, we used to talk always in our free times. I am very happy every time I talk to him. With his corny jokes, and some funny statements, I didn't notice that I already have a crush on him. <3 Look, because of that feeling, that plan of being friend with him change into being close to him. Well, I know all of us wants to be close to someone we like, right? And that's me. I already forget that he is not an ordinary teenager like me. And that's already sucks me! :3 Because of that feeling, I experience to get hurt, to hope for something that impossible to happen, and it kills me. If I know, I already tell him that I like him for so many times but still, I think he doesn't believe me.
'' What is this I'm feelin' I just can't explain. When you're near I'm just not the same. I try to hide it, try not to show it. ''
--- Butterflies on my stomach; Slow Motion; Heart that beats fast. All of these ''corny'' things already happened to me. Yea! You feel like you are in heaven when you have a long conversation with your crush. Sweet right? Talking to him all day, from morning to morning again. A non-stop conversation to someone you like? I wish I can go back to that time, I wish I have my own time machine where I can change that into a sweeter thing but suddenly everything change. First, let me tell you the history of my sad yet sweetest thing that happened in my whole entire life. ---
I met him here in our place. He is a God's follower, he always pray, he studies in a seminary, in short, he is a SEMINARIAN (someone who's vocation is being with God). At first, I really don't like him. Actually it's not my plan to have crushes or to like someone who's vocation is being with God. I just want to be his friend, that's why I tried to ask his name to some of his co-brothers that are already my friends. Some of them already think that I like him, but actually NOT! After their 1 week stay here in our place, we don't have any closure yet. So after the days past, he came back again, just not to join their sports fest here in our place but to have his vacation. Since the summer vacation is 2 months, he stay here for almost 2 months with his friend and also a seminarian. Well, this is my chance to be his friend. Hahahaha :D And this is the start of my story. Since I've met him, we used to talk always in our free times. I am very happy every time I talk to him. With his corny jokes, and some funny statements, I didn't notice that I already have a crush on him. <3 Look, because of that feeling, that plan of being friend with him change into being close to him. Well, I know all of us wants to be close to someone we like, right? And that's me. I already forget that he is not an ordinary teenager like me. And that's already sucks me! :3 Because of that feeling, I experience to get hurt, to hope for something that impossible to happen, and it kills me. If I know, I already tell him that I like him for so many times but still, I think he doesn't believe me.
Hey! Mr. ________, I know that you is not a seminarian anymore. I feel sad about that because it became hard for me to see you again because we are in a different places. Like what you have said, we are on a '' Long-Distance ''. Aww, yea! It;s really hard for me. By the way, I want you to read this blog and I want you to know that I like you since the time that I've been close to you. If you want too know how long is it? Check our chat box and look for the date of our first conversation, that is the time of my feelings for you. Actually! It is hard for me to do this, I am scared that if ever you will read this, our friendship will last and I am hoping that it won't happen! This is my confession, and I am not ready for what will happen if he will read this. Last song for you! Remember, FALLEN by JANNO GIBBS...---
Our little conversations are turning into little sweet sensations
And they're only getting sweeter every time
Our friendly get-togethers are turning into visions of forever
If I just believe this foolish heart of mine
REFRAIN
I can't pretend that I'm just a friend
'Cause I'm thinkin' maybe we were meant to be
CHORUS
I think I'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
And I don't, I don't know what to do
I'm afraid you'll turn away
But I'll say it anyway
I think I'm fallin'(fallin') for you
I'm fallin'(fallin') for you
Whenever we're together, I'm wishin' that goodbyes would turn to never
'Cause with you is where I always wanna be
Whenever I'm beside you, all I really wanna do is hold you
No one else but you has meant this much to me
REFRAIN
I can't pretend (no) that I'm just a friend (I'm just a friend)
'Cause I'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
CHORUS
I think I'm fallin', fallin' in love with you (I)
And I don't, I don't know what to do (yeah, yeah)
I'm afraid you'll turn away (I'm afraid you'll turn away)
But I'll say it anyway (yeah)
I think I'm fallin', fallin' in love with you (I think I'm fallin')
And I don't, I don't know what to do (and I don't know what to do)
I'm afraid you'll turn away (I'm afraid you'll turn away)
But I'll say it anyway (anyway)
I think I'm fallin'(fallin') for you
I'm fallin'(fallin') for you
CODA
I'm fallin', I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin', fallin' for you
And I don't know what to do, yeah yeah
Fall, I'm fallin' for you
Your Apo,
Dawn P. Roca
Our little conversations are turning into little sweet sensations
And they're only getting sweeter every time
Our friendly get-togethers are turning into visions of forever
If I just believe this foolish heart of mine
REFRAIN
I can't pretend that I'm just a friend
'Cause I'm thinkin' maybe we were meant to be
CHORUS
I think I'm fallin', fallin' in love with you
And I don't, I don't know what to do
I'm afraid you'll turn away
But I'll say it anyway
I think I'm fallin'(fallin') for you
I'm fallin'(fallin') for you
Whenever we're together, I'm wishin' that goodbyes would turn to never
'Cause with you is where I always wanna be
Whenever I'm beside you, all I really wanna do is hold you
No one else but you has meant this much to me
REFRAIN
I can't pretend (no) that I'm just a friend (I'm just a friend)
'Cause I'm thinking maybe we were meant to be
CHORUS
I think I'm fallin', fallin' in love with you (I)
And I don't, I don't know what to do (yeah, yeah)
I'm afraid you'll turn away (I'm afraid you'll turn away)
But I'll say it anyway (yeah)
I think I'm fallin', fallin' in love with you (I think I'm fallin')
And I don't, I don't know what to do (and I don't know what to do)
I'm afraid you'll turn away (I'm afraid you'll turn away)
But I'll say it anyway (anyway)
I think I'm fallin'(fallin') for you
I'm fallin'(fallin') for you
CODA
I'm fallin', I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin', fallin' for you
And I don't know what to do, yeah yeah
Fall, I'm fallin' for you
Your Apo,
Dawn P. Roca